Sunday, November 30, 2008

Ahhhh Music!!!! "God is a Dj..Life is a dance floor...Love is the rythm...You are the music!!!

One of my very favorite things in, I completely loose myself in the fascinating sounds of it, become inthralled in its beauty, its emotion, and its language.... For music is truly a reflection and one of the languages of the soul.

Earth carries her resonating sounds, throughout her vast and varied continents, sounds so unique as her nations and as the ethnic groups of people she inhabits.
The most influential sounds are Mother Nature's , great composers have tried to imitate her sounds, as the italian composer Antonio Vivaldi composed the Four Seasons in four violin concertos. Vivaldi evoked the feeling of spring, the exuberance of summer, the nostalgia of autumn and the coldness of winter in his high strings concertos, all concerts reached a crescend which brought to life Mother Nature's magical sounds.

As music imbeds her enchanting and rhythmic sounds into our lives, she creates the ambiance to our present moments, delighting and mesmerizing us with her pleasures.

From the earliest of times, mankind has been touched by music and its meanings, every country on this planet we call Earth has its very own sound, creating traditions throughout the world. As soon as we hear Bob Marley....we imagine the Caribbean Islands...Jamaica, Trinidad, The Bahamas, their beautiful sea shores, their beautiful people and sunny beaches.
When we listen to the African drums, we steal away to the wild jungles of both The African Continent and Brazil, black slaves were brought to work in the early 1600 for the white settlers, thus bringing with them their beautiful sounds such as the ''samba'' and lundu, a forthrunner of the samba sound which originated also in Africa.

Everywhere we go in the world, music is a part of our lives , I myself could not imagine a world without it, one of the most delightful things about music is that even Nature has her own sounds.

Have you ever really listened to the sounds of rain? I mean really listened... how its drops saturate the ground with her melodious soothing sound? And tell me about sitting on a rock by the ocean shore...ahhhh.... I can bring myself there and hear the waves crashing against the rocks and feel its powerful force ! What about a starry night... you lay in the grass and listen to the melodious sounds of crikets.... you are immediately wisped away into the night!!

And thunder!! I love thunder and its magestic power, it leaves you with a feeling of awe!

Another favorite of mine is the wind.... I love to go out in an open area and spread my arms out and feel it touching, caressing my face, moving my hair, ....listening to the wind under a tree as the leaves gently make the most soothing of sounds. When I was a little girl I thought that God wisphered thoughts to us humans thru the wind.

The beautiful songs of birds in the early morning , mere words cannot express their beauty!!
And how about the magical sounds of thousands of butterflies in flight?

In all of Natures realm, from the exquisite songs of dolphins whales and birds, there are certain mystical musical sounds that not only inspire, but bring peace to our minds and our world.

It is difficult to say: "I like a certain kind of music", for there are so many varieties as there are people in this world! As for me... ohhh.... music is the mediator such as prayer, to my soul!

I can loose myself in Bob Marley and dance ragaee barefooted for hours !!
Or listen to Chris Cornell and sing to the top of my lungs... along with him "Like a stone"!! or Show me how to Live! I LOVE THE DRUMS HERE !!
Or Kings of Leon ....Closer... a mixture of blues and rock ! And tell me of Metallica's song 'Nothing else matters" I love the guitar close no matter how far...could'nt be much more from the heart..forever trust in who we are, and nothing else matters...never opened myself this way.....

If you have listened to the soothing sounds of Cherish the Day...moving the way that I move...and I breathe your only can rescue me, this is my prayer...just listen to this song and feel the energy of the songs vibration, they will take you and lift you to amazing heights!!

Another great sound is sambas from Argentina, they play as if crying with the guitar, and they touch my heart! Specially Jorge Cabrune from Argentina singing "Que seas Vos" That it may be only You.... and Mercedes Sosa an Argentine folk singer.. I love her powerful voice in ''Solo le pido a Dios" I only ask God... and Andean sounds from my ancestors...I love the instruments such as the zamponas, charango. Another group i love is IntiIllimani from Chile, their sounds can bring me to tears... find them on you tube and listen to ''Alturas , Dolencias...a piece from Ecuador...they are amazing!!
Eduardo Gatti, a folk singer from Chile, one of my favorites... singing ''Los momentos''. 'The Moments ....find him in You Tube...he is amazing...this song and many he has written touch you to your core! I love my country of birth!!

Now to the guitar sounds...I absolutely adore Andres Segovia classical guitar sounds...Asturias and concierto de Aranjuez ..... Fantasias para un gentil hombre are some of my favorite! I go to another world when I listen to this music!!

Cannot not mention Shakira!! Her voice is mesmerizing and her energy is surely transmitted to her audience as she sings and of my favorite songs of her are: La tortura... a mixture of regaetton and reggae/rock and When ever... Where ever.... she mixes the zamponas and middle eastern sounds..

Have always been fascinated with middle eastern sounds, lately I listen to a group called Vas, where the lead singer or vocalist is the prominent artist Azam Ali, she has a hauntingly beautiful voice, the album called Sunyata has the most beautiful of my very favorites of her is ''Refuge" and from the album 'In the garden of Souls..the song 'Prayer for Soheil" is amazing!! Her song "The Promise and video is absolutely beautiful!! Definetly check them out!
Love to listen and belly dance to middle eastern sounds, there is nothing more inspiring!!

Then there is the blues, a roots music that evolved from african/american work songs my favorite being Janis Joplin singing Gershwins's beautiful, haunting classic ''Summertime".
I can really feel the pasion of her art as she sings!!!
And lets never forget The Beatles!!! All you need is Love!!! and My guitar gently weeps!! Michelle.. my belle....Penny Lane.....I love the Beatles!!!
Oh and another favorite Lynyrd Skynyrd's ''Simple Man''...the best song!!
And David Bowie's "Wild as the wind" has got to be one of my very favorite tops!! Love me me.. love me.. love me...say you do....let me fly away with you...for our love is like the wind...wild as the wind.....
There is also Danish music, while i lived in Europe was introduced to the different groups and one i really love is the old danish group... Gasoline, Kim Larsen being the lead singer, one of my favorites songs from them is ''Kvinde min'' meaning = My woman and Langebro =The long bridge and love Sanne Salomonsen a song called ''Uden Dig" = Without You as well as "Den jeg elsker..elsker jeg'' = The one i love..I love...
I can go on forever on music!! Love classical music!! Love the great composers like Beethoven, Vivaldi, Mozart, Bach, Tchikosky, Love the sounds of Opera!!
Madame Butterfly is one of my very favorites, and Bizets' Carmen.
And I must add Smetana's composition of The Moldau, is literally a musical poem that takes our soul in flight to magical places!

The sounds of New Age with Sarah Brightman and so many other wonderful singers!!!
I wll end this by saying... Thank You!!! to all of the worlds greatest composers, singers and writers that create such beauty! Thank You for moving my soul and my feet ......
Music is the stuff Life is made of.....

Monday, November 17, 2008

What is your Passion?

I have been blessed with the opportunity to live in different continents. I was born in Chile, South America, then moved to the North American Continent in the U.S.A, the windy city of Chicago to be exact during my early childhood years. My family then moved to Utah and I moved as a young bride to Denmark, Europe to live for many years.

All of this moving around caused and stirred a lot of thoughts in me , I always asked myself : "What now?..." and thus my life evolved into different facets, I became a wife... then a mother...three times, and life in its infinite wisdom took me through many experiences, both rewarding and some bittersweet which I hold no regrets . Well...after many years of being in a process of a spiritual/physical metamorphosis, almost being kept in my very own cocoon of sorts, I have been evolving into the woman I have always dreamed of becoming , have analyzed my life from the beginning....finding some deep profound truths about myself throughout this journey.

You see... I have always been Passionate.. and even a few close friends have told me that I am too the time I took it the wrong way by becoming offended, and I was on the defensive and on guard at all times. When I made the discovery about my inner truth, it all made sense!!! Since but a child, I had been passionate about my views, my feelings, my environment, people, spirituality, and in later years found that..... there was much more for me to discover!

When I experienced divorce, I was brought face to face with the reality of being on my own and discovering who I truly was, for the first time ever, I recognized my true feelings and what Passion really means to me.

I discovered Life in 3-D..... I say this... because Life in my eyes has many dimensions... and every dimension is created by the concepts embedded within a thought process, by what we choose to impregnate into our Minds through these thought processes.

So I began doing a personal study on '' Passion", Wow!!! What didn't I find!

First of all ...I will share with you how I see myself on this day....I am a Garden of Passionate Possibilities....where my mind holds the Power to create literally to my heart contents!!

I mention the garden...because all that is green I Love, all that has Life I Love!

Thus, my first Passion : Acknowledgment of Love, Love is my Passion....from here derives all of my other Passions! Next, is Life itself....meaning God the Creator/Father/Abba as I like to call Him, my very own ''Abba'', and the secret to my seeing Life in 3-D!

When we observe the road, freeway or any other place, we have a limited side view, we need to turn our heads to see if it is okay to pass to another lane, at this moment in time our eyes only have the ability to see a certain range, but what must be understood is that our eyes see after what our brains interpret, and what is being sent to them. In actuality our eyes see nothing, for our eyes don't send images to our brain, it is the other way around.... these images are constructed in our brains based on very simple signals sent .

There is a higher - order brain function which determines and perceives the necessary range of light , this is not determined by distance, but by the brightness of the object in view. Now.. to get to my point, when we surrender into Life, meaning our Higher truth....our God/Self/Father we obtain a new vision, thus we develop a sort of 3-D way of looking at things, everything is more clear....everything makes sense... and there is a broader way to look at things... for we accept a higher wisdom and can actually perceive a deeper, higher understanding of Life around us, thus.... becoming our inner vision the tool to manifest our True Reality. We see beyond..... what others cannot see nor perceive....for we obtain this way of looking at Life in a ''Passionate Way'' and in my eyes...the way a child would perceive, with Awe.......with Innocence..... an approach of Wonder to new ideas and All pertaining to Life. All is easy...All is possible.....All can be achieved and Is......
So being ''Passionate" in my Garden of Life is just one of the many dimensions I have chosen to experience, the other is the " The Passion to Create", I Love to Create ... to Be Creative through writing poetry, an essay, a Love letter... a book, creating a new veggie dish, or an amazing garden !!
Finding that I am "A passionate Being'' has brought me face to face with my truth!

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Becoming Conscious of our true Nature..........

What is our "true nature"?
Thinking some years back, I remembered a phrase my grandmother used to tell me, she always would say to me : "You are of precious value, there are none like you, and God took the time to make you in his likeness, you are indeed a miracle". Never, did I understand this phrase with more understanding than where I find myself in life now. After many years of walking half asleep or half conscious, I say this because a part of me yearned to find truth, and many a time thought I had found it! Not until I let go, and surrendered my inner child to the Creator I was shown that there is another way, and can say since the year of 2002 my life has made a drastic transformation !
I recognize now that it was the yearning of my soul seeking solace and truth, my true self had been patiently awaiting for my attention. As he patiently awaits for us all , many of us were pre occupied with the drama of the "little self" (ego) that we had not noticed that there was something far greater which is our true nature.

Ego has superficial aspects of each of us which is the cause of divisive ideas such as I, me, mine, yours, and we have individual lives and ways of life, but in the depth of being, we are all One.
We are Divine Beings living in an ephemeral world, a world of illusion, a non real world, a world of attachments, were the best of us lays hidden below the surface, and conformity is an ideal for many. Where many are encouraged to emulate the ephemeral world, where attachment permeates these ideals thru movies and songs, people think that to be happy you need to be living a certain condition, then the human condition continues its confused and painful life.

When we become conscious of our true natures, we indagate every place for truth, we leave no book unread, nor stoned unturned, yet in all of this indagation we later realize that we need not seek there, nor here for we are allready EVERYTHING, AND ARE ALL, and this All is inside us!

Our true nature is DIVINE, its true source derives from LOVE and only Love, everything else is foreign to LOVE, the turbulent world we live in, is mind created, such is our power!
And as Master Jesus proclaimed in the Apochryphal Gospels, Gospel of Thomas : "The Kingdom of God is inside you, and all around you, not in mansions of wood and stone. Split a piece of wood......and I am there, lift a stone.....and you will find me" .

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Friday, October 10, 2008


Well, here are seven things that randomly describe me: 1 . LOVE, LOVE rain, will run out and will drench myself to the bone!!. 2 . I am a romantic at heart, absolutely loose myself in Rumi's poetry!. 3 . Unpplanned moments are my favorites, ( like a fortuitous look from a beautiful stranger) 5 . Really do believe that there is a ''Goddess within". 6 Every time i wake up i think: ''What adventures await for me this day?.....'' 7. Life truly is a basket of fruits and chocolates, there is always something sweet for the palate to choose from.....

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Energy and its Vibrations........

"E = mc2 Energy equals mass times the speed of light squared" - Albert Einstein

Have you ever thrown a pebble into a lake? And watched as hundreds of ripples are created in the water and a certain vibration appears from the ripples? ENERGY yes , just as when you walk in a carpet and all of the sudden you receive a chok! ENERGY! Or rub against someone and receive a grand chok of ENERGY!
Even when you are in a certain state of emotional happiness and your hairs stand on edge...ENERGY! Everything here on earth has vibrational energies, everything moves and is alive, from the tiniest speck of dust , to the great mountains of rock and the amazing beings we really are. We transmit energy, we receive, we atract and we create by the concepts that we are
Energy is all around us, we can truly say that we are magnetic/energetic beings, now what kind of energy do we emanate? Is it pleasing being around us, are we positive, happy, hopeful, loving or are we sad, angry, depressed hateful?
The body is considered to be as a type of battery composed of three vital parts.
1. Structure - The cells and the organs, bones, muscles, skin layers, blood vessels, nerves and other physical structures that they form.
2. Liquid - The intra and inter-cellular liquids that play important roles in the generation of electrical energy.
3. Electrical charge: The charge responsible for activating the body and its structures ,it is called
"Life force", life energy , spirit, electromagnetism or "chi" as the chinese refer to it.
We aquire vital energy thru the food that we partake, specially if we partake of nutricious green food, non foods with preservatives the air that we breathe, by cosmic radiation, and by restful sleep. We humans have an aura around us as a sort of magnetic field, seen to a few and scientists have proven its excistense with the advent of Kirlian photography.
A simple description of the aura suggests that it is made up of coloured flames of energy that are emitted from the human body. The colours of the aura have been determined to be reflective of health and energy levels. Light, clean colours indicate good health and high energy levels, whilst dark, heavy colours indicate disease.
The energy that derives from our energy fields truly speaks for itself, for if we are happy, people notice and are attracted like bees to honey, if we are the opposite of this, people also notice and stay away, for who wants to be around negative energy?
We should always remember that we have a great responsibility to our world, for our energy can move the world! And as the ripples in the water they will return from whence they came.
So, it is a question we must ask ourselves, what kind of energy am I creating, what does my vibrational energy emanate? What energy do I want returned?
And, what am I willing to do to bring my vibrational energy up?
Everything can change, if we will it, we are powerful Beings and we can increase our energy by thinking positive, with loving thoughts, by re-thinking and practising some form of
internal art such as Tai Chi.
We are the Masters of our world and the energy we eat, and breathe is but a mirror of what we think of ourselves........

Monday, September 22, 2008

Autumn is Here!!

One of my favorite seasons has just begun its new transformation; it is now in the early stages, for the trees still maintain their green summer foliage, just one or two leaves here and there have changed their colors to crimson reds and yellows. The air is crisper, the winds blow more fiercely, the days become shorter, there is a feeling of renewal as the birth of a new season approaches. The earth shares of her summer bounties, little country side stands sell of their crops, a wide variety of apples such as : honey crisp apples, mutzu, summer reds and all sorts of pumkins, peaches, pears, onions, and lovely figs grace the countryside with their colours.
Autumn or even better said.....Fall, when the leaves drop gracefully one by one outwardly towards the ground...feeding the earth once more in this new cycle with nutrients from its leaves to nourish its soils . The trees are left bare of its natural cover exposing their nakedness to the world, thus a certain feeling of somberness surrounds all, yet Nature expresses her happy face with the wondrous array of colours she portrays! Autumn......its sunsets filled with romanticisms take your breath away! There is a slower pace occurring, as if Mother Nature begins to prepare for her moment of silence and deep slumber. Nature's true nature derives from the Universal Source, carrying within its roots a deep and ancient wisdom, which expresses itself in all of its creating seasons in being perfection itself.
She has kept herself busy during the spring and summer months, bringing new life to all she touches and now it is time to recover her energies and replenish inasmuch as she has so innately given throughout the year. There is a time for all seasons in Nature as well as in our spirituality/humanity,we must take time to ponder, honor our sacredness, observe and to learn from her; to allow a rest from the chatter, noisy sounds of our minds and external surroundings. To rid ourselves of the unwanted, and make room for what is to come; in other words to undress before the world in our truth exposing our true nature.
Go into the depths of your souls at this moment in time, rejuvenate with the calming, soothing forces of Autumn, refilling and reawakening our hearts.. minds with its quiet and serene
passing. Drink in the timeless magic of wondrous Autumn and become One with its Nature, thus will we also transform.......

Saturday, September 20, 2008

JUST BEING...............

Today seemed to be just a regular day, but I always find hidden little surprises!! I was in a garden  and followed a bee, it was so delicate and dainty, yet it flew as if it had a thousand wings.!  It would land on a beautiful red hybiscus flower and drink its nectar then would fly over to a  yellow daisy and linger a bit there, but it would always return to the hybiscus, I figured that its nectar must be sweeter. Then I noticed the skies where overcast, the sun had hidden its face for awhile, yet one could see its rays coming thru the clouds creating a feeling of expectancy . The wind marked its path by blowing fiercely and with gusto, all of the sudden I saw lighting up by the rocky mountains and waited......thunder was surely on its way. Sure enough its echoing sounds rang thru across the valleys as if it carried a message for us all to hear, I could sense its powerful energy!
Then all of the sudden, across the skies I watched mesmerized as two rainbows of unusual brightness began to develop and I thought to myself :" God is the Master Painter, he  creates masterpieces from simple things and does it so effortless, and I believe that he shows us our Divinity by exposing us  to Divine things".  That instant I felt a deep gratitude for such beauty, and for having the privilege to have been present at that moment.  I love my Life!!!

Sunday, August 3, 2008


 For the last couple of days I have  been thinking about what life means to me, and today these words appeared on my mind so clearly,  thus allowing  my soul to speak in reference to Life . 
That: " Life without Love is like an empty glass without water, or as a human without breath".
 This showing me once more the importance of Love, seeing the emptiness of the glass without its life giving energy, for water is Life therefore energy! Without it, there is no Life!   Therefore,  there is no Life without Love.!  Neither is there Life without Air!  Nor can there be Life without God!!
Many thoughts adjacent and relevant to this subject  have become part of my daily living, thus teaching, encouraging to further analize into the meaning of Life . 
We humans can survive many days without food, but fewer days without water, and we can only remain but, for a few moments without air.   I became aware of the thought of Life being  without two of its primary elements,  Water, and Air.
These precious elements so vital,  are as essential as Love;  for without it, we humans are empty vessels.
Life is God....... for God is Life....therefore Life is Love and All Things Are......
Thus, Life is Breath.....for Air is Life, yet the day shall come when we exhale our last physical  breath, then will our spiritual self breathe into a new form of Love .....for we are beings of Love....and Love carries on .. in its infinite perfect circle .
So....Always  Live Life with Great Passion for Love......Seek it with a hunger in all its Loving forms......Drink it as you would Water, and fill your cups with it until your heart's content. Breathe it,  filling your nostrils with  gusto as you would Air....or as if it were your last humanly  breath on earth . 
After your experience of Life, once it has become a part of you in all its Glory, and its sweetness travels throughout your veins like a close friend..... go out into the world and open up  your heart , let your Energy  of Love shower the world without end!
And remember: '' Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away" .  Carpe Diem!!

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

THE POET IN ME.....................

Throughout the years I have compiled many expressions of my inner thoughts, all are rhymes of the heart and speak only to the heart. ( 2008 Copyright on all 3 poems)

Life is wonderous
because Thou Art Wonder
Life is Happiness
because Thou Art...
How is it possible
to have not perceive Thee?
If Thou Art closer to me
than my own heart....


As the wind moves
from place to place
even the seasons
do remake, themselves
in wonderment
creating a new moment,
Water stilled in puddles
stagnant, rots
no one day is the same
clearly as sun and rain
For as a clock ticks
its way,
delivering momentum
occuring precisely,
its purpose
divine intervention
embraces time
deliriously succumbing
here, now
your heart and mine
to the soul of matter

A Day in the life of God

Crimson skies
fertile valleys,
clouds that dance
in bold expressions
Whispers, constant echoes
through resounding impressions,
radiant pleasures
nature's treasure....
Abounding beauty
unspoken leasures...
A breath of inspiration
in its vast dimensions
Splendor, stillness
all speak of glory
Each one perfection
Yet, simplicity
God's creation.

Monday, July 28, 2008

The Grandeur of Nature's Trees


Trees literally take my breath away!!  Ever since I was a little girl trees have been my friends, I would climb on them, play around them, hug them and sit by them listening to their silence.
Amidst the soft breezes I could hear their voices, silence may think that there is no sound in silence, yet in silence there is a stillness which is its own sound .
I am enamored with all that is green and part of nature, to think that these great trees have derived from a little tiny seed baffles the mind,  then to see them in their splendor arrayed in their finest foliage with flowers,  truly brings to mind of the Creator  behind this work of art .
 Chinese wisterias trees with their exquisite blossoms,  japanese maple trees with their  colorful leaves, grand oak trees with their massive trunks, fruit trees of all sorts  , like mango , avocado , fig , apple , oranges, lemon trees , olive trees, apricot trees, their beautiful and colorful flowers not only service us with their shade, but they provide us with fresh air and give us delightful fruit to eat. How wonderful is that!!
It is a wonder that from something so stoic and ever still can bring  such joy at every season, I have observed and studied trees for years, they truly live the moment. For example, in the winter they stand stoic against the winds and storms, lying dormant, sleeping for just a little while, their trunks and branches exposed ,naked without a leaf for coverage from the elements. Yet in the spring small green buds protude thru their dry and seemingly dry branches, bringing brand new energetic  life again to the  tree , and within weeks the tree is filled with flowers providing sweet nectar to hungry little bees and other insects. Then when summer arrives their branches are filled with plump delicious fruits, bringing food to us humans and our little friends the birds.
Then comes the fall, and as if by magic their leaves turn vibrant colors of dark reds, golden yellow, bright orange and purples  covering the earth, majestically creating its grandest masterpiece!  And lets not forget winter,  the tree stands alone stoically as always,  silently  waiting for his long winter nap, he has no foliage to cover him, his branches as arms stretched out openly awaiting for the cold to envelop him with snow. Yet still in his bareness,  has an offering if we are cold, we may cut off his branches, throw them in a fire and warm our homes.
 The tree has taught me to live in  the moment, this is all we really have, he is one of nature's greatest teacher and one I really love!
Have you hugged a tree today? 

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Saturday, July 19, 2008

This is who I AM...

As a beautiful and ever developing woman , I have the whole world at my reach.
Knowing exactly who I am !
Some people say I am a wanderer, others a bohemian gypsy, or a hippie but I like to refer to myself as Out of this World! Literally out of mind....(Vivi does not live there anymore...)
"Center, center". Yes this is where you can find me, centered and favorite place!
I have learned so many things throughout my life. I have lived in 3 continents and seen the splendor of life and the wonders of the human heart. What makes us all so unique but at the same time so alike? I have come to realize this thru the many years of soul searching and have found this, life is a journey where each turn you take brings you a surprise, which as in the pages of a book bring you face to face with your present moment.
With that said, I shall try to convey what "The moment" has brought into my life, oh this is so much fun!! A blog to write to my hearts content!!!
First of all... after having been married for nearly twenty years and gone thru a divorce I was brought face to face with a very simple fact I had not yet discovered ..had it not been if this life changing event had not occured . We are all born into this world without attachments (other than our mothers and fathers of course ) I discovered that, after the ties of married life were severed, then went on a personal journey to find out who this woman was : " THE SO CALLED MOTHER , WIFE, LOVER, FRIEND " . This journey has been amazing, for once I embarked on this adventure I was astounded at my findings, the inner child lurking inside had always been there, that sweet little girl waiting to be rescued had been waiting all along.
I can honestly say that I have rescued her, and have found that she is much more than I ever imagined she would be!! I once thought that happiness was being in a family, or being married, not a state of mind, thinking that I had to belong to something or someone, to ever truly be happy . This realization has brought a freedom never before imagined!!
I do not need anything, nor a ''special relationship for my happiness, nor for anything to make me happy'' for my happiness derives from within me, it is a choice I make and I am happy because I choose this state of mind. I like and love the feeling of happiness , giving it to myself and sharing my happiness with others. Like many people I used to think that my personal happiness revolved around ''a man'' that without this man I could not be happy . My identity was lost for many years until I truly saw me, and discovered that it is all about me, not in a selfish way but in a way where my concerns are valid and where I find balance in all I do . Here is where I like to implement wisdom in my life, for without it life makes no sense.
The old adage : ''To thine own self be true" has spoken volumes to my heart, and I am first true to myself in all manners , my happiness belongs to me, therefore I am fully responsible for having it and I am fully conciencious of my choices and what I choose for my happiness.
Have found that people enhance our lives, as we enhance theirs, no one can make you or me anything, happiness is a choice, and is my number one top priority.
Since having gone thru a metamorphosis of the mind, many amazing things have occurred to me, I no longer see life as I did ten years ago. I love who I am, I really am no longer affected by peoples ideas or assumptions of me. I am in a very comfortable place, where the discoveries I have made have had a great impact on my life, can actually admit that my life has made a great turn, for the better. Besides all of the many blessings, one that has made a pivotal change is my first grandchild Isabella. Wow!! When God was spreading out cuteness, she must have been first in the line, and then she must have squeezed in between the lines to get some more, I am kind of bias of course!!!
This little angel with the red hair, is exactly that, a little red haired angel, she is a bundle of joy and has a keen intelligence that is demonstrated in all of her actions.
I love to come as often as I can to be with her and her little family, she calls me ''mormor'' mothers mother in danish , or in other words grandmother, and she has done so since she was about eight months. She knows me, we know each other and have developed a close relationship that will endure forever, we play and laugh, she brings out the child in me.